She threw on armor. While I lost any shred of what I once was.

Fuck love.

That’s what we both said. 

What we both meant. 

We felt it bone-deep. Core-deep. Soul-deep. 

And then we started to feel other things. 

Or at least I did. 

I thought she did too. 

But she didn’t. 

Because if she did?

She wouldn’t have broken my heart. 

Shattered me into nothingness. 

Turned me into something I don’t recognize.

We both said it. 

Fuck love.

Too bad the universe didn’t listen.

Because I fell for the girl. 

The girl who only wants to be my friend.

The girl who doesn’t want to love me back. 

She destroyed me. 

And instead of walking away, letting it go, burying the hurt deep, I decided to burn my whole world to the ground. 

He let me see the real him. And I completely lost the real me.

Fuck love.

That’s what we both said. 

What we both meant. 

We felt it bone-deep. Core-deep. Soul deep.

And then Jackson Raines made me start to feel other things.

Things I didn’t want to feel. Things I never wanted to feel again.

Thing I have never felt.

So I lied. I ran. I shattered. Him. Me. And then I became numb.

We both said it. 

Fuck love.

It hurts. It kills. It destroys. It makes you believe in lies.

Too bad we didn’t listen.

We fell. 

And we fell apart.

He tried to burn the whole world to the ground to survive.

And me?

We’ll just have to wait and see