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The Heart Too Long Suppressed
註釋After a Psychiatrist spitefully told Carol Hebald that she would someday commit suicide, that it was simply a question of when, something inside her clicked. Thirteen years later, in a move that would have panicked the dozens of doctors and friends who had witnessed her mental problems over three decades, the forty-four-year-old writer and former actress threw her medication into the ocean. It was an act symbolic of her rupture with therapy and a step that may very well have saved her life. In this beautifully crafted memoir, Hebald tells of her spiral into mental illness from the late 1930s into the 1970s and of the role played by therapists and hospitals in that descent. She describes the frightening blur between reality and fantasy that fueled her childhood imagination and recounts the times of sexual and emotional abuse. By adolescence, acting had become her life's ambition. It was a defense mechanism and a way of creating emotions she otherwise could not feel. As she pursued a promising career on the New York City stage in the 1950s and 1960s, Hebald went from one therapist to the next. Wanting to trust someone with her story, she found herself in power struggles with therapis